Responsibilites, chickens and locks.

This is the story of my crappy two hours.
I discovered that my house is hard to break into. Just FYI, it's irritatingly difficult, so don't even bother trying. Amusingly, I locked myself out of the house, that's how I discovered it too be so hard to break into. So, being locked out of my own house is actually not that bigger deal. It's fine, I was hungry, but it was soon to be the least of my worries.
One of my very dear friends is a dickhead.
She went to Sydney Market and bought a chicken because it was cute. And then her and her friend both didn't want it.
I'M SORRY BUT WHEN YOU BUY A FUCKING PET, YOU BUY IT TOO KEEP IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I'm just annoyed that she's so irresponsible.
A chicken is a life. I little life, yes, but a life nevertheless. How can people be so careless, like with dogs and cats, they get them, and then they don't want them anymore.
Fucking hell.
People are so stupid.

Lights, action, canon!

I have a pretty awesome life right now.

I went through this stage where I was all doom and gloom, f*** love, boys suck, life is meaningless, blahblah period, and you know what? It sucked.
I feel sorry for me now, because I was missing out on life and it's awesomeness. I have a pretty awesome life, if I do say so myself.
I have the most beautiful friends anybody could ever ask for, who take care of me and look after me and make me laugh.
I have the bestest (I know it's not a word) sister in the entire world.

I'm not even kidding. This kid, who's younger than me by two years, should be my older sister. Maybe it's because I'm such a total ditz, and I have no clue about anything, but she takes care of my and makes me laugh and I love her to pieces and don't know what I'd do without her.
I love you Hol.

So, I got a camera for my birthday yesterday. My birthday's in September, but, I really wanted one now, so I'm going halves with my renticles for it. It's a canon 1000D EOS, and, I lobe it. It makes me happy.

I tell you what I don't love.
School work. I'm bored with my education.
Anywho, I thought this blog was going somewhere interesting, like Mexico, but obviously it's not, so, farewell.

What?

Wow, someone just asked me if I like anyone.
Sure, I like everyone.
But in a 'like like' (haha, how mature) kindof way, no I don't like anyone.
Anywho,
So this friend who just asked me who I like alost asked me if he thought he should play AFL next year (a sudden typing error just made me realise AFL is an anagram for ALF. Haha, my new nickname for gayFL has arrived!!) anywho, I said I it's not a good idea, based entirely on the fact I don't really like AFL because I've never been exposed to it. But really, if you want to do something, go ahead and do it.
This though, coming from the girl who was stopped by mere parents from ridding herself of hair. Regretable doesn't even cover it.

Hey, you, there, yes, you if you're reading this; 831. <3. Hahahaha, yes, I do!
Farewell.

Click.

I'm clicking my pen.
I'm one of those annoying people who click pens because a) they like the sound and often make a tune out of clicks, and b) enjoy the fact that it really annoys people. Once, last year, I think, I sat English tapping my pen against the table, constantly, just to see if the teacher would say something. He didn't, to my dismay, one of my friends behind me did. So impatient my friends are. But, I'm sure said teacher was getting irritated. Almost as irritated as myself, because he was droning on when nobody really cared. Sort of like now I guess.

I wrote heaps today. I love writing, putting pen to paper, using MY hand to make something happen, a letter, a symbol, a clique love heart drawn by thousands of girls over thousands of diaries, books, and desks. I love the scrawl, the scribble, and the flow of writing, it's not like typing, where you press different keys, which, unless you're like myself and type freakishly fast, there isn't a flow like there is with a pen. It's, a bit like magic.

Here's a photo I took; thought I'd just put it out there.

This, is space they cannot touch.

Spending time with a loved one is awesome. When you're comfortable with people, it's like, you're just 100% pure you. It's not like you have to pretend that you're cooler than you are, that you're smarter than you are, because these loved ones, these people, see through that, they know better, they know you, and clearly, they've accepted it. Why else would they stick around?

I think it's important not to hide things from people. Honesty really is the best policy and, if you can't be honest with someone, why are you even around them? What gives you the right as a friend, a lover, etc, to say 'well I'm not going to tell them the truth, because the truth hurts,' and to delude yourself into thinking that someone is better off not knowing what's going, leaving them in confusion when the truth is at last found out. Would you like being in the dark? Why base a relationship on lies and untruths? Why tell someone that you rock at cooking, when really, you'd burn water. Where is that going to get you? Having to explain it in the future. Honesty is the best policy. Which is why, when you're around those you trust completely, you don't have to lie, it's liberating.

I don't know, I just put alot of faith and trust into the people I call my friends. They make me who I am. I'm just putting it in writing how disappointed I'd be if my friends were all about deceit and fasçades.
<3 Over and out.

If I only had a brain.

Sometimes I wish I could just flick forward or back time. I wish I could change what's happened and create another pathway to take and leave the crap one behind; but then I remember, everything happens for a reason. It's not like by saving John Lennon from being killed is a bad thing, it's like, changing words said or things done won't stop you from being hurt, heart-broken, whatever, eventually. Everything happens for a reason; fate exsists.

The decisions we make today change what will happen tomorrow. Think about the last thing you said to a friend, a collegue, your mum, and consider, 'if I'da said this, instead of that, what would change? If you want to tell someone that you love them, but don't, and walk away, think 'What if this is the last thing I ever say to them?' I'll tell you why we don't say things like that; it's because we're afraid, not of or for ourselves, but of and for others. Why is asking someone something so hard to do? They're just words right? Wrong. They mould what we are and how we act. So when you go to say 'I love you,' to that someone whom you do love, think about this; if I chicken out, and I never see them again, will I regret not telling them.

Life is there to be lived. Live it loud and live it proud.

<3 Peace out man.

'How did that happen?'

I served this guy today.
Which is not actually that significant, because I serve hundreds of guys and eventually they all roll into this one ball of guys that I don't seem to register as individuals. But, this is guy was tall and handsome, and decent-looking (I should explain that further; he didn't seem arrogant, or self-assured, he seemed...comfortable) and has this gorgeous smile and he made my bones all want to melt. And that was before I actually served him. He made me laugh out loud, geninue, happy, not-putting-it-on-because-you're-paying-for-food laugh, and I loved that.
I liked it; smiling when he walked away, and smiling as I things over after that.

I guess I'm that place where you're heart isn't broken anymore, it's badly scarred, and scared, to beat again and feel something. I guess, after awhile, my mind kindof looks at a relationship as this thing that was just going to screw up again, make it hurt again, but I think with this guy, whom I'll never see and again and whom won't ever give me a second thought, he'd be able to make it beat, again.

I guess this guy who I'll never see again will never get that he gave me for more than a two dollar coin for four ice-cream cones, he also gave me hope.

The song in which was being played while someone is dying is a song I'd hate to listen to.

So, I watched the Last song yesterday with AddiK, and it was good. It was terribly sad, so of course, people crued. Addi did, and she tried to hide it from me, and I feel bad because I made her feel bad for crying, but as a human being, you have to be very 'tough'(or emotionless) to not cry when Hannah Montanna's dad died. It was sad! And I did have a slight welling of water in my eyes! But then the moment was ruined when I started laughing because I could hear sobs from the audience. Teenage girls...sheesh! It was amusing. So, for people planning to go see Miley Cyrus pout her lips whenever she's not talking, and Liam Hemsworth, or whatever his name is, look deep into her eyes and snog her passionately, then this is the movie for you!

We also went shopping at bankstown, and I bought awesome leather gloves that really don't have a point and cost me a fair amount, but still, they're awesome. I also bought a ring that says 'hópe'from sportsgirl, ans it's supporting people with anorexia and bulemia, and it's for the butterfly foundation, I also got a sexy jumper from (va)jayjays and worked from 5:45 AM to 12.

Farrr out, it was pretty good, but like, the first two hours were soooooooooooo long. Some guy, but I have NO idea who, wrote there number down 'for me' and gave it to my boss to give to me, which made me laugh out loud. Sure, I'm DEFINEATLY going to call you, because I'm totally into *not really, I threw your number in the bin immediately* and then felt bad, because I really wanted to give all my friends your number. hehehe.

Questions.

Yes, I stole this from your blog. IMITATION IS THE BIGGEST FORM OF FLATTERY!!!!!!!!!!!!!

1. What are three ways to win your heart?
Cook for me *seriously, the key to my heart is in my stomach*, magic tricks- I know it sounds lame, but the card tricks and the rabbit out of the hat get me every time, and laughter- I love laughing, and if you make me laugh, I love you. It's that simple.

2. Do you like lightning?
Hell to the yes. I want to get one of those freakin' awesome photos.

3. Have you ever cut someone else’s hair?
Ummm, I don't think so.

4. Last person you said ‘i hate you’ to?
Umm, I don't know, Matty? I say it to alot of people, in a joking manner, usually followed by a 'I'm joking, I love you'

5. Rain or sunshine?
Sunshine. It's nicer at the beach when it's sunny.

6. Biggest turn off?
Liars.

7. Fave movie?
I actually have many, including, Star Wars 6, Avatar, and The Longest Yard. Hell to the yes.

9. Would you date someone who smokes?
You're going to die.

10. Would you date someone who was addicted to drugs?
I wouldn't like to.

11. What’s your biggest turn on, physically?
The smile. It melts my insides.

12. Would you have sex w. someone you weren’t dating?
Haha. Depends how drunk I was.

13. Have you ever missed someone and regretted breaking up with them?
I didn't do the breaking.

14. If you could go on ONE DATE with any celebrity, who would it be?
JUSTIN BIEBER!! I'm totally kidding, it'd have to be Lucas Till. He's a spunk.

16. What’s your relationship status?
Single

17. Do you like cuddling?
I lobe cuddles.

18. Do you hold grudges?
No, I'm a softy.

19. Do you regret dating anyone?
Nah, they taught me my lesson.

20. Hugger or kisser?
Bita both, but I love huggles.

21. Missing someone?
Not really.

22. Most important lesson you’ve learned from your exes?
es? Ex. I've learnt that all the wishing in the world won't stop someone from breaking your heart. And that second chances aren't worth it.

23. Are you happier single or in a relationship?
Is it sad that I say the latter?

24. How important are looks?
On my scale, I actually have to be physically attracted to someone before I go 'hmmm, maybe this might work.'

25. Would you rather date someone who was SUPER-HOT or someone who was nice?
I'm so shallow.

26.Do you stay friends w/ the people you’ve dated?
Define Friends?

27. Would you fight over someone you wanted to be with?
Depends on who it is.

28. Do you kiss on the 1st date?
Maybe...

29. If someone cheated on you, would you take them back if you really loved them?
I think that if someone loved you enough, they wouldn't cheat, and no matter how much you love them, they obviously don't love you back enough.

30. Name three things you would not tolerate in a relationship?
Lying, manipulation, and accusations.

33. Which one of your friends do you think would make a good prostitute?
Caitlin.

34. Did you miss anyone today?
Nope.

35. Last person to see you cry?
Dad.

36. Who/what made you cry?
The look.

37. Are you a forgiving person?
I like to hope so.

38. Would you ever share a girl/boyfriend with your best friend?
I don't share guys.

39. Are most of your friends guys or girls?
Girls.

41. How long does it take you to get ready to go out ?
Forever!! I'm so slow! It takes me ages because I get distracted.

42. How many people do you know of named Adam ?
Umm, one!

43. What was the last thing you burnt?
A chip, yesterday, I set it on fire with a candle.

45. What is your full name?
This is the internet. I dun't thunk so.

46. What color is the bra you have on now ?
Red and white.

47. Do you straighten your hair every day?
I think I've only ever straightened my hair like, twice.

48. Do you worry about the size of your boobs?
I don't need to.

49. Are you the typical girl who’s addicted to gossip?
No, not addicted, I just find it amusing.

50. What are your favorite girly magazines?
Girlfriend. It's cute.

51. Did you ever spend all day/night getting pretty for a guy?
Not all day.

52. Did you ever cry during a romantic movie?
Sometimes. I think it depends on how hormonal I am.

53. Would you leave the house without makeup on?
I do all the time.

54. What’s the biggest turn on about guys?
If they're totally ripped. Phwoar.
But, mostly if they make me laugh.

55. Are you a girly-girl, tomboy, or in the middle?
In the middle. Only because I asked Holly and she said so.

56. Is pink truly the best color in the entire universe?
No.

57. What’s the most expensive piece of clothing you own?
Ummmm, I don't know....

58. What color do you absolutely despise?
Hmm, I don't despise any one colour, but a gross pink makes me cringe.

59. Have you ever stolen?
I think I steal pens all the time. It's unintentional, but still.

60. Have you set your hair on fire?
Yes. Science. Year 7. It smells awful.

61. Do you wear sweat pants?
Yeps. Go trakkies.

62. Do you know anyone who has lost their virginity?
Umm, a few.

63. Have you ever ran into a door because you didn’t see it?
A few times.

64. Doesn’t 50 Cent suck?
Fiddi cent. Ch-yer.

65. Do you like hugs and kisses(xoxo)?
nah, xx.

66. Do you act gangster?
All the time. I think it's hysterical.

67. Ever made a prank phone call?
Not really.

68. Last kiss?
Don't want to talk about it.

69. What did you want to be when you were growing up?
An...*insert awesome job here* undecided

72. Favourite NON sexual thing to do at night with a guy?
Talk and watch movies :)

73. When did you first start feeling older?
Not that long ago.

74. Favourite guilty pleasure?
Milo and rafello.

75. What famous person(s) would you like to have dinner with?
Hugh Jackman and Angelina Jolie.

76. What famous person would you like to date?
Aaron Johnson or Alex Pettifer.

78. What do you hate about your school?
The lack of penis's.

79. Last person whose bed you laid in besides your own?
Ummm...I don't remember.

80. Have you lost a friend recently?
Not really.

81. Ever have a sleepover with the opposite sex?
Not really.

82. Do you use smiley faces on the computer a lot?
mhmm :)

83. Is it easier to forgive, or to forget?
to forgive.

84. Do you give out second chances too easily?
Not anymore.

85. Is your best friend pretty?
They all are. Stunningly attractive.

86. Is it awkward when you run into your exes?
not anymore.

87. Have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle?
Yes, I do that all time.

88. Can you make yourself cry?
Sometimes.

89. Is your life simple or complicated?
pretty simple.

90. Are you easily confused?
Yes. Very

92. Are you taller than 5′4″?
Hell to the yes.

93. Have you ever liked someone who treated you like crap?
Yes, I have.

94. Is your current hair colour mostly your natural hair color?
All of it is.

95. Does everything really happen for a reason?
I hope so. If not, all my plotting an scheming will be for nothing.

Zappo.

It's funny how my life is defined by 'before Durras'and 'After Durras' like it's some higher being of spiritual rightness or whatever, haha. It's true though, Durras has become a huge part of my life and I know it sounds cheesy, but I really don't know what I'd do if I didn't have that escape from everyone. It was fun, we (for now, Matt and I) caught some massive waves and I learnt a bit more about bodyboarding from observation and trial-and-error (note; trial and error is defined here as yes...yes...no *dumped*) I love it. There's this...I don't know, power, when you're in the surf. Not you though, the ocean. This force of nature that can bring you down on your knees in seconds. Sets of 8 foot waves would roll in, one after another, while we'd all try desperatly to either catch, or not be killed, by the monsters. But when you do, I always make some huge mistake of not pulling out quick enough, when you're flying through the air for a second before being caught by a crashing wave. Bliss.
I guess it's everything about Durras. How everyone gets along and talks to one another, how much gossip there is. How everyone accepts you for who you are there, not for what you are here. At Durras, it's a clean slate. I love how, one conversation flows to another, and suddenly, you're talking about something completely different. How you can make racist jokes, because we're all white *seriously, we might as well be called KKK :P) But I guess what I love most is the peace that's there. The lazy holiday attitude. I love it.

Well angels heard the news today.

I'm sorry Mon, the blog was too awesome to be ignored and not copied.
RANDOM THOUGHTS

• That was funny Mon, really.
• Matty's really cute being all over-protective and all. Hahah.
• I love cupcakes, seriously, that are yummy>
• I hate science. I don't hate it, I just think the work they make us do is completely un-necessary and stupid. Errr.
• I like being friends with people again. Sometime you miss talking to people you used to see or talk to everyday, and it's great talking to them again. It makes me happy, even though it shouldn't.
• My throat is really sore. I don't know what I did to deserve being sick four days before I go on holidays, but whatever it was, I'm sorry.
• Blaze of Glory is playing on my iTunes, which btw, deleted all my songs. I'm annoyed.
• It's hot, or maybe I have a fever from being sick, but it really is hot.
• I should clean my room- though, not unusally, I won't.

Hey Soul Sister.

I don't actually like that song very much to be honest. Like, it's cute and everything, but after awhile, it's like, wow, this song is totally over-rated. So, I worked yesterday, and it was the shortest eight hours ever. Seriously, I think time-literally flew. It was great, I had fun, I served people, and I ate heaps of food. I don't think my boss hates me anymore, which is like, WOOT! Geezes, I am SAD! I'm obsessing over this guy who I'll a) never see, b) don't even like me, or know I exsist, c) is totally and completely and utterly out of my league d) I could continue for ages, but I'm not going to. I think I feel like playing my guitar.

My love.

I copied this off Mon's blog;

I love the beach- the sand between my toes, the water and sun on my skin, the energy of the ocean. I love reading- when you get lost in a book for hours and hours and time ceases to mean anything because you're in that world, with those characters, you feel as if you guys have been friends for a long time. Music- I guess it's a part of me, it helps me realise what I'm feeling, and helps me to understand what people are thinking and feeling, I also love dancing to it. Dancing; for me, it's just about having fun and being loose. Art- I think it's important to be creative, even if it just means making art with your dinner; everyone needs to have an outlet once in awhile. Exercise; I know this is vague, but anything that gets my muscles working and helps distract me from what I'm feeling, stops me thinking, is a good thing, right?

I love...people, I love watching how they behave around different people, what they become, who they are, what they try to hide. Human behaviour is an amazing thing.

Animals; I love fuzzy creatures, they have such personality, such life, such fire. They're lives are simpler then ours, content with simple pleasures such as a meal, a ball, a rub on the belly. I envy their life for it's ease.

Photography; capturing someones essence is...amazing. When you take that photo of a person, and they look the way you see them, the way they should be seen, it's a great sense of accomplishment. I like how it's experimental, and how a failure doesn't necessarily mean the end. I appreciate that.

I love; my family, I think that's why I am the way I am. I love my friends, who make me laugh, who make me want to yell in frustration, who teach me so much, teach me what I want to me, teach me what I don't. I can't thank them enough.

I love someone who isn't right for me.

I love people who are individual. Who are who they are because they enjoy being different.

I love that you're still reading this; and I thank you for it.

Remarkable

Jesus,
I give an exasperated sigh, because I am a pathetic student and I just don't care. I'm not even being one of those brainiacs who do completely and utterly awesome and are like; 'only 90% ..WHY DON'T I JUST GO DIE!!!'
I'm serious here when I saw that all I do is sit there, and do nothing. Like, Science for example, I spent the last lesson I had learning Russian, and I plan to do that for the rest of the year. Now, that's a little pathetic, don't you think? Don't get me wrong, it's not like I don't have a good work ethic or anything like that, because, at work, where I'm paid and I have a fair amount of fun, I do really well. I just don't know what it is about school that makes me so...uninspired to learn. Maybe it's the fact I'm not organised...maybe it's the fact that I just don't give a stuff wheather or not I do well.
I should. No student should go to school thinking 'geez, what can I do to not do work today?' I don't, I just go to school, because I have to. And homework and assignments...what are they? Satan's idea of a joke? Because I'm not freakin' laughing. I don't have school, I love the atmosphere, I love being entertained, but I'm not entertained by sitting and being left on my own to work. It's just not going to get done. I wish I could actually be given a name for what I have; oh, that's right, there is one; laziness.

I'm full into reading fantasy at the moment.

I love it bro'

It's like, fully sick dude.

Lol, my terrible language moment is over now.

So, yes, I'm into reading about forbidden fairy (though, spelt faery in the book, what the hell...) and I think it's really...fascinating. The whole 'fairy's thing' I don't know what people were smoking when they came up with the fey idea. They seem so cunning, so fiery, so...completely and utterly awesome. I don't know, I guess I like the whole idea of a whole being right infront of us, and us just not being able to see it.

It's so totally wicked.

Anywho, I can't really add anything more. :)

Chow Bella. <.><.> (hehe, titties)

Dear Me.

I'm just going throught girlfriend mag- I know, I'm now one of those girls who actually reads that stuff. *Runs around screaming* and three girls had written letters to their younger selfs. I thought It'd be cool write one to me, two years ago.



Hey you,

You're in year 8 this year, you haven't even turned 14 yet, you young thing you! Life's pretty cruisey at the moment, you've just gotten into a new class, little do you know, those girls will become some of your best friends and support system for the next two years. The last time you were at Durras, you're parents decided that to buy a caravan down there- which you're terribly opposed about. But chicken, let me clue you in; You won't give up your weekends, and it'll be awesome, you'll meet so many wonderful people and it'll change the way you see the world. Your not interested in relationships, why would you be? Your a kid, you still have growing up to do. Loosen up though baby, you're going to have world turned upside down and shaken for the next year and a bit. Don't make the mistakes that could have been prevented, meaning, don't fall as hard as you do. Don't listen to your heart- don't listen to your head- both are dickheads. Listen to your wise friends, and when they tell you that someone is no good for you, listen to them, take the safer, option and though the other option seems less exciting and your not entirely comfortable with it, you should have taken the road less travelled. The next year will be rocky, don't lose your grip on your school work- opps, too late. But you will get better, whn life seems hard and you don't how your going to go on- you do go on. You get fitter, you get stronger, life will pick up. It won't be the same though.
But you'll get over it.
When life gets you down mrs brown, and things seem hard or tough, and people are stupid, obnoxious or daft, and you feel that you've had quit enough...just remember *que rest of galaxy song*
Be safe chicken. Good luck.
Your older, wiser, harder, self.

Elopian.

I really hope no-one reads this; it's absolute shit. Seriously, I write about nothing and when I write about something, it's not really important and therefore eggactly like if i wrote about nothing.

I, had nothing of importance today, well, I did, school cerificate year, blahblah, everything counts.
Lol, I'm so going to fail science, I sit there and watch videos.
Mr Ross the teacher is cool though, he's such a nerd, he likes doctor who, and star wars, and monty python, he's like, scary awesome.
You know when some teachers are like so cool, it's weird? Like that; and no, I'm not inlove with him, he's 39, he has two little kids, he's balding, and he's shorter than Adrienne.
BUT, he eloped,
bringing me to the topic of,
ELOPING!!
i would SO totally run off and get married. how awesome would that be?! Totally wicked!!!!!
I'd run off, and get married by the beach and with a make-shift priest!! :D

how awesome.
tootles.

A blog.

This doesn't have much meaning to it, I'm not really writing to make a point, generally I do, if I'm annyoed at something, but today was pretty good.
Except, I do have something.
Today I had P.E
Not a big deal, but I don't think my teacher likes me very much, which is odd, because my charming personality and willing-ness in class generally makes teacher very happy, she just gave off the air that she didn't like me, maybe she just doesn't like children, or maybe she's just a bitch :P
No, I shouldn't judge people.
I read another good book today, it's called hushhush, which sounds like a shit title, but it wasn't, it was really good! Anywho, I can't really think of anything remotely interesting to say,
farewell.

The mittens.

Well, I just spent manymany days at Durras; land of the awesome and wholly.
I,

• Learnt to fish; well, rediscovered it. I love it now!! And I caught so many fish!!!! I am the great white hunter!!!
• Looked after children; I love kids. They make me laugh, their energy is infectious, and so is their beliefs. I keep forgetting I was there age, and things that don't seem like such a big deal now, at their age, were.
• Got concussion; now, this may seem like no fun, and that's because it isn't. I ended up in hosptial. Thankgod for my family- I love you. I'm sorry for being such a dooche.
• Had an awesome time. I love the ease, the comfort, the people.

I had a funny weekend last weekend, I was at Durras, the Webby's arrived, I found out some incredibly interesting news, stacked it, and that was the start of a pretty shit weekend which resulted in the concussion.

I made the realisation that I'm not that ugly, and it could be MUCH worse. I could look like some bitch who refused to give me a shot. :)

I love my life; you should love your too; because without it, everything's different.

P.S WEAR A HELMET. SERIOUSLY, IT SAVED MY LIFE, IT COULD SAVE YOURS TOO!!!!

Dedicated to Adrienne; God rest her soul :P

Ten things about ten people but you don't know who's who.

One; I didn't even talk to you; I was too chicken, but I want you to know that I'm sorry for acting like such a knob when I was around you; you made me giddy. The funny thing is, you're computer illiterate and won't ever read this; and I won't tell you to you're incredibly gorgeous and handsome face.

Two; You have a queen bed, and that sucks. I think you're gorgeous and way prettier than I, and I love you, my shampoo. :)

Three; You're not a horrible bitch, you're kind-hearted and warm and I think you're totally awesome, especially when you start crying after I told a completely unfunny and awful joke. I love you munchkin.

Four; Stop annoying Addi and Beckles. I love you, so much, you're like the brother I've never wanted, and I feel that you take care of me just as much as I take care of you, and you don't annoy me, but you annoy them, so stop, please. :)

Five; You hate me!!!!! Haha! That's so funny, because I thought I'd forgotten how you made me feel and gotten over that, but I haven't. I'm just as weak and stupid as I was before.

Six; I think of you like my own mother. I'm sorry that you're son treats you like a piece of shit and makes you hurt so much, and I think you're an amazing caring person and I care about you very much :) Maybe I can be your daughter?

Seven; You're so incredibly great. You're girlfriend is so lucky, and I love you and care about you very much; I wish I saw you more, you make me happy when you're around :) If you ever think about self-harm again though, I'm going to hit you with a stick.

Eight; I'm so proud of you, you're growing up, and you're a beautiful little girl and I can't wait to be like a big sister and drive up to you're house and have sleepovers and spoil you with presents. Look out for you're brothers :)

Nine; You can't read; you're a dog: literally :) Without, I'd be a very very very sad, fat little person.

Ten; I wish you'd stop trying to control me, I'm too much of a person to be controlled and it upsets me that you try to change who I am. But I'm glad we don't fight as much.


Adrienne, you complete me.

'You have three options'

Well, it's the 3rd today, and I got back from Durras yesterday.
I feel bad.
There was a really really really really really really hot guy there, and I think I may have scared him off because I told all the adults that I thought he was hot and then the adults told his parents and then the parents told him. Poor kid. I must have scared him off, but he seemed like a really nice guy and I genuinely want to get to know him, not just take all his clothes off to reveal an incredibly buff body underneath (I wish I was exaggerating; I'm not; so freakin' hot!) Durras was fun, I had a blast, I was active and I laughed and swam and nearly freakin' drowned from being caught in a mother'effin' rip. Like, I wasn't in danger, but it was so strong and I was so tired! I saw Jake, which was awesome 'coz I haven't seen him in ages, was completely ignored by my ex; hey, that's fine, you don't want to talk to me, I won't talk to you, and played ample amount of speed. I love the holidays.
I don't really have much to report, except, I've made a resolution or two;
I'm going to try to be a better person,
I'm not going to take shit from people anymore;
I want to be able to do that basketball thing, where they spin it with one finger,
and I want to be fitter and do better at school.
Also, I'm giving up smoking :)
Cowabunga Dude.